Below is a brief, up-to-date synopsis of my music in career-speak. The Calendar on this site is always up-to-date.
NEWS & UPDATES:
July 2013: I'm back to work again after a long haitus for health reasons. Please check out my calendar for shows, check out demos and DRIVE tracks @ www.reverbnation/paulaheld, and stay in touch with me via Facebook and Twitter. Thanks!
2012 New Folk Competition Finalist, Kerrville, TX
2011 Finalist Wildflower contest, Richardson, TX
2010 Double-finalist John Lennon Songwriting Contest, New York, NY
2010 Finalist Songwriter Serenade contest, Hallettsville, TX
2010 Austin Songwriters Group (ASG) Competition Finalist, Austin TX
2010 ASG Bluebird Contest winner, Austin TX
2008 ASG Scholarship recipient, Austin TX
2008 Bugle Boy Showcase Finalist, La Grange TX
2003 Eddie's Attic Showcase Finalist, Atlanta GA
I usually test out raw demos here, but at this time you'll find songs that have received some sort of accolade including a couple from my album. For more music go to reverbnation.com/paulaheld and paulaheld.com
ALBUMS: DRIVE (2010)
“A curiously addictive marriage of folk, pop and jazz influences.” ~ Arthur Wood, Maverick Magazine
"DRIVE is no freshman effort; these are songs written by someone who's been wise enough to wait until her time is ripe." ~ Margaret Moser, Austin Chronicle
For complete bio and audio of DRIVE tracks, please go to www.paulaheld.com.
Available upon request.
BACK CATALOG & WORK IN DEVELOPMENT
A lot of video is unpublished and a large portion of my catalog of music is commercially unrecorded. Let me know if you have an interest in seeing/hearing more and I'll get it to you via email or Dropbox.
Paula is an award-winning, Austin-based songwriter and performer. Raised in New England and Spain, her music is informed by a variety of influences from classical music and popular jazz, to folk, rock & blues. Since arriving in Austin in 2005, she's gained steady recognition and respect as a songwriter, vocalist and guitarist with penchant for melody, storytelling and poetic lyricism. She's appeared regularly in such venues as Momo's (now closed), the Bugle Boy, the Cactus Cafe and Anderson Fair, and appeared at the Bluebird Cafe in Nashville and Uncle Calvin's in Dallas.
Paula's music is described as lyrically rich, melodic and sensual. Her sound is a blend of folk, jazz and blues, with a voice cited as reminiscent of Eva Cassidy and Norah Jones.
Paul Haake (2013) - Guitar
Roland Brown (2013) - Bass, Guitar
Andrew Hardin (2010-2012) - Guitar
Narragansett - Doc Rietman (2011) - Guitar
Narragansett - Nick Grubbs (2011) - Bass
Narragansett - Eric Rietman (2011) - Drums
"DRIVE" by Paula Held
Produced by Stephen Doster
EAR Studio, Austin TX
"Leavin' Happy" (2010)
by Paula Held
Produced by Stephen Doster, EAR
"Five Songs" (2003)
by Paula Held
Produced by Solar Sounds
"Five More Songs" (2002)
by Paula Held
Produced by Solar Sounds
"Songs from the Rascal Yard" (2004)
Song by Paula Held "Your Other Guenevere"
Produced by Winterstone Productions
You're My Falling Star
I Don't Care About The Moon
Mama Don't Tell
Just Like Me
Paula Held, “DRIVE” (Independent) - Fred Schmale
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A refreshing and surprising debut from Austin, Texas, this ‘DRIVE’ of Paula Held. The CD was produce...A refreshing and surprising debut from Austin, Texas, this ‘DRIVE’ of Paula Held. The CD was produced and the songs on the CD were arranged by the great Stephen Doster, who played the guitar on Nanci Griffith’s Nashville-debut Once in a Very Blue Moon, dating from 1984. Doster himself nowadays plays and works in Austin too, and encounters a growing demand as producer.
Let me introduce Paula Held to you. She is the daughter of a father who taught music and composed Music and a vocalist mother (classical music), both her parents weren’t afraid to experiment with music and had an open mind for other cultures. Paula studied the piano and violin and (later) harp in her childhood. She spent a lot of time in Spain, where Spanish got to be her first language. After returning to the States she got her first guitar at the age of fourteen. From that moment on Paula starts writing her own songs in addition to her poetry writing. Her parents divorced and Paula had to stay alternately with her father and her mother in different locations. She finished off High School in Miami and went her own way from then on. She ended up in Tallahassee (the capital of Florida), where she did her first shows and where she started liking jazz. In 2004 she moved to Austin, where she has been working ever since.
Let’s go back to Paula’s CD 'DRIVE.' To my mind Paula Held adds new ideas to the jazz-related work of now famous female artists like Norah Jones, Diana Krall and Madeleine Peyroux. And, after listening many times to her fine CD, I can honestly state: ‘Paula is not less gifted, she is just less famous.' Her songs are beautiful, the melody lines fine, her voice is flexible and sultry, the accompaniment is excellent with leading parts for keys-man Red Young (listen to his fine work on the hammond organ) and wonderful Doster on guitars. In a couple of songs we hear trumpet player Ephraim Owens. Drummer J. J. Johnson and double-bassist Chris Maresh provide a solid foundation. Dennis Ludeker (of South Austin Jug Band fame) plays the strings on some songs.
Paula’s lyrics are surprisingly different, she uses unexpected metaphors to please the open-minded and interested listener. Take for instance the first lines of the dreamy ballad ‘Winter Blossom’: ‘The Musclewoods have all been dipped in mercury and silver. A black grackle cackles ‘neath a dove-grey sky. A restless patch of Black-eyed Susans lashes out in sprays of color, all decked out like a baptist’s daughter, gone out the window to meet her lover, underneath the wistful gaze of Winter’s leaden eye. Every region of my skin you draped in burgundy and velvet, and removed the crown of reason that I wore’. I really love this kind of music, it’s poetic and has depth.
To summarize: ‘Excellent songwriting, great atmosphere. Paula catches us with her delightful jazzy debut album’. Listen to her on CD-baby.”
Fred Schmale, www.realrootscafe.com, The Netherlands
Paula Held, "DRIVE" by Arthur Wood - 4 out of 5 stars
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Paula Held ~ DRIVE CD Review By Arthur Wood | Maverick Magazine, Sept 2011 4 out of 5 DRIVE is ...Paula Held ~ DRIVE CD Review
By Arthur Wood | Maverick Magazine, Sept 2011
4 out of 5
DRIVE is a curiously addictive marriage of folk, pop and jazz influences.
These days Paula Held is based in Austin, Texas. Five years ago her home was Tallahassee, Florida. Before that came Miami, preceded by periods when she lived in Rhode Island and Philadelphia, as well childhood years when her family resided in Madrid and Seville, Spain. As for the source of her musical genes - her father is a music professor and composer, while her late mother sang.
DRIVE, Paula’s debut solo release, is a ten-song melodic marriage of folk, pop and jazz influences. It was recorded at EAR studio in Austin, and produced by guitarist/producer/recording artist Stephen Doster. The musicians aiding Held (guitar, lead & harmony vocal) and Doster (acoustic/electric guitar, harmony vocals) on DRIVE include J. J. Johnson (drums, percussion), Chris Maresh (double bass), Red Young (keyboards, Hammond organ), Ephraim Ownes (trumpet) and Dennis Ludiker (strings).
Housed in a three-way fold-out card liner, relative to I Need To Drive - the opening song - the four-way folded lyric sheet contains a dedication to Jeannette Walls, author of the autobiographical THE GLASS CASTLE (2005). As for the aforementioned lyric, it wrestles with the conundrum of ‘retaining a place one can call home’ while concurrently ‘desiring the freedom of unfettered wanderlust.’ The trumpet and drum propelled Shoop Ta Sho ploughs an American Songbook jazz influenced furrow, while the narrator in the ensuing slow-paced I Don’t Care About The Moon professes her love, although the object of her affection could equally be a friend, child or lover.
Having name-checked our nearest planetary neighbour in the latter song title, it’s worth referencing the album artwork at this juncture. On the front cover a basket appears to be coupled to a balloon by three rather tenuous looking ropes. The basket contains one female passenger her arms open wide as if to embrace the future. In truth, the basket is suspended beneath the moon. Fully opening the outer face of the card liner reveals that the balloon, basket and passenger are floating over the landscape of a populated planet. Pursuing the latter vein, on DRIVE there’s further mention of the heavens in Held’s song titles You’re My Falling Star, Watermelon Moon Eyes and Moon’s Too Bright.
Winter Blossom colourfully reflects upon the seasons, while the ensuing Tumbleweed Heart is an engaging tale of the enduring affair between a ‘sagebrush girl’ and a fellow with a ‘tumbleweed heart.’ Closing with Our Goodbyes, truth to tell, DRIVE is subjectively pretty much carpeted with love songs, although thankfully they are thoughtfully poetic and, on occasions, edgy creations.
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Paula Held “DRIVE” - (Jazzy) Folk by SJ Williams
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["DRIVE"] is Paula's first CD & produced with taste & a light touch (never drowns the great sensual ...["DRIVE"] is Paula's first CD & produced with taste & a light touch (never drowns the great sensual vocals) by Stephen Doster who added sultry horns & a Hammond to create a pretty jazzy mix. Some of Austin’s most seasoned session players are here, too. It’s a sophisticated creation based on transformation – emotional & physical – and she writes the most surprising double-wide bridges!
Lyrically, it’s more about the feeling behind the story rather than just story.
#01 I Need To Drive – My least favorite (doesn’t = bad) Play anything else first.
#02 Shoop Ta Sho – Fun & soul-filled bop w/ great trumpet.
#03 I Don’t Care About The Moon – Beautiful & jazzy.
#04 You’re My Falling Star – Jazz standard waiting to happen. Brushed snare. Tasty piano everywhere. Sweetest simple guitar solo.
#05 Watermelon Moon Eyes – Mid-tempo, jazzy, melodic. Surprising bridge w/ cool descending strings just after it. Lovely, delicate instrumental outro.
#06 Winter Blossom – Such nice keyboards on this one. Nice song.
#07 Tumbleweed Heart – Totally Texas. Closest she comes to lyrical hook but still manages to sound like poetry. Like the harmonies on this – mixed way back.
#08 Moon’s Too Bright – Another tasty, well-written song w/ beautiful guitar solo.
#09 You Got Love – A bit more traditionally folk/pop. Mid-tempo.
#10 Our Goodbyes – Wistful & beautifully written & arranged. Perfect ending.
FCC WORRIES – No
[Turning Moon Music 2010]
Texas Platters: Girlie Action - Margaret Moser (3 out of 5 stars)
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This debut's calling card comes complete with decorative notes. Drive is no freshman effort; these a...This debut's calling card comes complete with decorative notes. Drive is no freshman effort; these are songs written by someone who's been wise enough to wait until her time is ripe. Paula Held's real strength lies in avoiding the singer-songwriter trap, which she does neatly by employing jazzy, poppy arrangements ("You're My Falling Star") bolstered by producer Stephen Doster's touch.
Local CD Review: DRIVE, by Claire Ashton
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Austin-based singer-songwriter Paula Held gave herself permission to follow her muse, the velvet-blu...Austin-based singer-songwriter Paula Held gave herself permission to follow her muse, the velvet-blue night sky and its cast of heavenly components, when her son transitioned into adulthood and left her with some well-deserved time alone to finally put a pen to her thoughts. The result is sophomore release “Drive,” a crafty concoction of heartfelt folk and vintage jazz that has earned the chanteuse both critical acclaim and stage-time in notable songwriter hubs like Nashville’s Bluebird Cafe. Produced by veteran Stephen Doster (Nancy Griffith/Lyle Lovett) at Austin’s E.A.R. Studios, Drive’s tracks provide the perfect soundtrack for summer with campfire storytelling (“Tumbleweed Heart”), time-honored ragtime (“You’re My Falling Star”) and lighthearted, organic fare that seamlessly melds the fun, surfer-blues vibe of Jack Johnson with the classic American composition of Cole Porter (“Shoop Ta Sho”). “Drive’s” lyrical intimacy and blithe instrumentation take listeners on the scenic route to a warmly familiar destination.
"DRIVE" - A Wonderful Musical Companion by Rob Patterson, Music Critic, Austin TX
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From the initial notes and first words sung by Paula Held on her album "DRIVE," it’s obvious you’re ...From the initial notes and first words sung by Paula Held on her album "DRIVE," it’s obvious you’re in the presence of something special, from a singer writer whose work draws from and touches the mind, body and soul. With a voice as immediately familiar and tender as a dear friend or fondly remembered lover, Held spins her songs from natural imagery, heartfelt emotions, and a vivid sensual lexicon. She draws from the finest and most sophisticated strains across the breadth of popular music to weave a sound that transcends genre to become timeless and endearing. "DRIVE" glows with riches to be savored time and again as ... visionary facets and evocative pleasures are revealed with every successive listen. It’s an album, as the title implies, that transports the listener to that realm where the magic happens.
Launching the 10-song collection with the warm breeze of “I Need To Drive,” Held takes you on a rich musical and lyrical journey through scenic and mystical places. She paints such redolent images as “a shimmering sapphire shy,” “a chandelier of stars,” “Musclewoods, all dipped in mercury and silver,” “heavenly bodies suspended in space” and “rainbows to chase” atop a canvas of luxuriant musicality. Along the way you meet fellow travelers with a “Tumbleweed Heart” or “Watermelon Moon Eyes,” savor touches of romanticism under the midnight sky with “You’re My Falling Star” and “I Don't Care About the Moon,” and tap your feet the soulful bop of “Shoop Ta Sho,” lit by a deliciously muted trumpet. The reflective “Winter Blossom” and “Moon’s Too Bright” draw out archetypal feelings we all share, and by the time she closes the album with the warm embers of “Our Goodbyes,” you know you’ve made the acquaintance of a new and wonderful musical companion who is a delightfully welcome addition to your life.
"DRIVE" - Romance with Words by John Williams Davis, Singer Songwriter, Kerrville New Folk Winner
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I enthusiastically recommend Paula Held’s debut album, DRIVE, because it’s a love album. By that, I ...I enthusiastically recommend Paula Held’s debut album, DRIVE, because it’s a love album. By that, I don’t mean that all the songs are about human love, though most are. Rather, it is an album by someone who has had a longstanding romance with words and music and who retains a ... fidelity to the integrity of emotion that a song should convey.
The songs on DRIVE transport the listener. The title cut feels ... like a lazy Sunday afternoon drive along country back roads. You can almost hear the Texas Panhandle wind in “Tumbleweed Heart”. Especially interesting to me are melodies and progressions in songs like ’Watermelon Moon Eyes’ and ’Moon’s Too Bright’. These are some of the most subdued songs on the album, but here, surprisingly, Paula takes the greatest chances ... continually surprising the ear with where she takes her melodies and progressions. Even as the listener is lulled by the ’softness’ of these songs, he or she is continually kept off balance ... the sum effect is a sort of dreamy drunkenness: just the sort of spell one might expect from a high-summer moon. I won't try to dissect every song on the album but simply say that, for me at least, all these cuts have a powerful emotive quality. Transport. That's the operative word, and I suppose this is a very well named album.
I should add that Stephen Doster’s arrangements and production seem pretty much right on target here, always interesting but never heavy handed, and thus one of Paula’s greatest strengths, the kind of plaintive innocence of her voice, is never swallowed up by accompaniment.
To conclude, if you are looking for something that sounds like something you already know, this probably isn’t the album for you. Though you’ll catch whiffs of Cheryl [Crow] and Rickie Lee and some classic tin pan alley, ultimately, this is a wonderfully unique creation . . . And Paula Held, if you’ll pardon the pun, can certainly hold her own with those better known names. Take DRIVE out for a test spin. I think you’ll find the experience addictive. I sure did.
An Audible Map - Review of DRIVE by Alison Moore, Author, Dobie/Paisano Fellowship and NEA winner
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"DRIVE" is a personal cartography, a songline of the heart. If, as the Aborigine of Australia believ..."DRIVE" is a personal cartography, a songline of the heart. If, as the Aborigine of Australia believed, it is necessary to sing one’s way through all the landmarks leading home, then "DRIVE" is this woman’s audible map. The route marks not just a heart's exterior migratory routes, but the off-season pathways to the soul’s interior. Longing fuels this journey from east and west; to the north and south, the trajectory of faith and hope. [This] CD was conceived in metaphorical restlessness, yet cached in a paradoxical but complimentary stillness. To create this work, Held had to sit down and wait for all that had been set in motion to catch up and coalesce into a single space and time.
Paula’s voice originates in that dusk between day and night: sensual, breathless, determined, playful. Around her acoustic guitar accompaniment there’s a rich texture woven into Stephen Doster’s intuitive production. Horns and a Hammond organ add sultry undertones to the jazzy mix, rounding out the foundation of piano, bass, drums, and electric guitar from some of Austin’s most seasoned session players.
"DRIVE" is a CD for the road. Something to slide into the slot on, say, Highway 50, The Loneliest Road, in Nevada. Or the four-lane maze around Miami. Or simply pulled over on the shoulder, watching the moon in the rear view mirror rise over the Sangre de Christo Mountains. No matter where the location of listening turns out to be, this is music to be soothed and stirred by on the long road from elsewhere to home.
Pull Quotes from press, radio, venues, artists and fans
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" 'DRIVE' is a curiously addictive marriage of folk, pop and jazz influences." ~ Arthur Wood, Maveri..." 'DRIVE' is a curiously addictive marriage of folk, pop and jazz influences." ~ Arthur Wood, Maverick Magazine, UK | 4 out of 5 stars
"To my mind Paula Held adds new ideas to the jazz-related work of now famous female artists like Norah Jones, Diana Krall and Madeleine Peyroux. And, after listening many times to her fine CD, I can honestly state: ‘Paula is not less gifted, she is just less famous.' Her songs are beautiful, the melody lines fine, her voice is flexible and sultry, [and] the accompaniment is excellent ..." ~ Fred Schmale, Real Roots Cafe, The Netherlands
"Paula Held's ... strength lies in avoiding the singer-songwriter trap, which she does neatly by employing jazzy, poppy arrangements ..." ~ Margaret Moser, The Austin Chronicle | 3 out of 5 stars
"Paula’s lyrics are surprisingly different, she uses unexpected metaphors to please the open-minded and interested listener. Take for instance the first lines of the dreamy ballad ‘Winter Blossom': 'The Musclewoods have all been dipped in mercury and silver. A black grackle cackles ‘neath a dove-grey sky. A restless patch of Black-eyed Susans lashes out in sprays of color, all decked out like a baptist’s daughter, gone out the window to meet her lover, underneath the wistful gaze of Winter’s leaden eye. Every region of my skin you draped in burgundy and velvet, and removed the crown of reason that I wore’. I really love this kind of music, it’s poetic and has depth." ~ Fred Schmale, Real Roots Cafe, The Netherlands
"... an album by someone who has had a longstanding romance with words and music and who retains a real fidelity to the integrity of emotion that a song should convey." ~ John William Davis, Singer-Songwriter, Kerrville New Folk winner, Denver CO
"Held spins her songs from natural imagery and a vivid sensual lexicon." ~ Rob Patterson, Music Critic, Austin TX
" 'DRIVE's' lyrical intimacy and blithe instrumentation take listeners on the scenic route to a warmly familiar destination." ~ Claire Ashton, Austin American Statesman
“Like the untethered balloon on the cover of "DRIVE", Paula Held poetically transcends typical expressions of emotional terra firma. Jazzy and Fresh. I like it!” ~ Lane Gosnay, The Bugle Boy, LaGrange TX
"DRIVE's tracks provide the perfect soundtrack for summer with campfire storytelling (“Tumbleweed Heart”), time-honored ragtime (“You’re My Falling Star”) and lighthearted, organic fare that seamlessly melds the fun, surfer-blues vibe of Jack Johnson with the classic American composition of Cole Porter (“Shoop Ta Sho”). ~ Claire Ashton, Austin American Statesman
"[DRIVE is Paula's] first CD & produced with taste & a light touch (never drowns the great sensual vocals) by Stephen Doster who added sultry horns & a Hammond to create a pretty jazzy mix. Some of Austin’s most seasoned session players are here, too. It’s a sophisticated creation based on transformation – emotional & physical – and she writes the most surprising double-wide bridges!" ~ SJ, KOOP Radio 91.7
“... the sum effect is a sort of dreamy drunkenness: just the sort of spell one might expect from a high-summer moon.” ~ New Folk Winner John William Davis, Denver CO
"[DRIVE] it is a beaut. A heartstrung odyssey hung heavy with poetry, longing and grace." ~ Regan Brown, Regan Brown Agency, Austin TX
"DRIVE is no freshman effort; these are songs written by someone who's been wise enough to wait until her time is ripe." ~ Margaret Moser, The Austin Chronicle
“Excellent songwriting, great atmosphere. Paula Held catches us with her delightful jazzy album.” ~ Fred Schmale, Real Roots Cafe, The Netherlands
“Voice of roses, lyrics of steel.” ~ Charlie Stewart, Handshake Management, Austin TX
"Paula Held is "Austin's Best Kept Secret." She is artistic [and] tasteful ... and nothing short of totally captivating. Of all our guests "In The Music Room" over the years, she is the most pleasant surprise. Stunning, talented ... " ~ Randy Tredway, Founder, In the Music Room House Concert Series
“Paula's intriguing stories and love songs, her soothing voice, and intricate guitar playing, absolutely stole the show at our house concert.” ~ Pat Martinek House Concerts, Golden CO
“Paula Held lit up my living room with her engaging presence, beautiful voice, and wonderful songs.” Jeffrey Mandel, House On The Lake Concerts, Tallahassee, FL
“Austin songstress Paula Held mixes the introspective poetry of Joni Mitchell with the soft jazz of Norah Jones in her debut disc. Stephen Doster's understated production lets her endlessly inventive melodies shine through. I'm enjoying it more with each listen.” ~ Steve Brooks, Award-winning Singer Songwriter, Austin TX
"Though you’ll catch whiffs of Cheryl [Crow] and Rickie Lee and some classic tin pan alley, ultimately, [DRIVE] is a wonderfully unique creation. Take DRIVE out for a test spin. I think you’ll find the experience addictive. I sure did." ~ John William Davis, Singer-Songwriter, Kerrville New Folk winner, Denver CO
"I’ve been listening to your CD all day and I can truly say that it’s one of my all time favorites. You’re in good company with folks like Linda Ronstadt, Tish Hinojosa, Mary Chapin Carpenter, Carole King and a host of others. I like the writing, the vocals, the instrumentation – all of it." ~ Lety Perez, fan
“Paula Held's sultry voice, combined with the jazzy arrangements of her songs makes "DRIVE" a wonderful listening experience.” ~ Joe Angel, Random Routes, KEOS, College Station TX
“The nuance and heart in Paula’s voice shines through and the intimacy of the production surrounds her beautifully.” ~ Christine Albert, Singer Songwriter, Austin TX
"Paula’s voice originates in that dusk between day and night: sensual, breathless, determined, playful." ~ Alison Moore, Author & 2009 National Endowment for the Arts winner
"[Held's] voice [is] as immediately familiar and tender as a dear friend or fondly remembered lover." ~ Rob Patterson, Music Critic, Austin TX
“Paula could sing the phone book and make every one around want to listen.” ~ David Brown, Songwriter, Austin TX
"Stephen Doster’s ... production [is] never heavy handed, and thus one of Paula’s greatest strengths, the kind of plaintive innocence of her voice, is never swallowed up by accompaniment.” ~ New Folk Winner John William Davis, Denver CO
“A beautifully produced, folk-pop gem.” ~ Jim Patton, of Edge City, Austin TX
“Bluesy and excellent.” ~ Paul Barker, Barker House Concerts, Austin TX
“Your CD is in heavy rotation in my car.” ~ David Halley, Singer-Songwriter, Austin TX
“Paula isn’t exactly musical but she’ll be DAMNED if the other kids can do something she can’t so she sits at the piano by the hour.” ~ Marilyn Custer, Paula's Mom, when she was 6
Quotes from Fans - responses to DRIVE from fans
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"I received my copy of DRIVE and I *LOVE* it. It is a very romantic album! A relaxing, titillating c..."I received my copy of DRIVE and I *LOVE* it. It is a very romantic album! A relaxing, titillating combination of whimsy, passion, and playfulness!" - Sylvia Powell, Tallahassee, FL
"Your new CD DRIVE is stunning! The cover art and entire design are out of this world beautiful, but pale in comparison to the music, your voice and some of the best new songs I’ve heard in years. I played it all day yesterday, over and over, and three hit as instant classics: I Don’t Care About the Moon, You’re My Falling Star, and Our Goodbyes. Thank you for sharing and for all you and your supporting cast has delivered in this art filled work. Stephen’s masterful as usual… aren’t we blessed. - Vic Ellisor, Austin, TX
“Your vocals rival Nora Jones at certain points in your album! Truly!” - Greg Engle, Songwriter, Austin, TX
"It is simply beautiful in all ways. Your poetry touches me deeply." Beverly Hand, Tallahassee, FL
"I just love 'You're My Falling Star,' love it, love it!!!!! My husband and I saw you perform and sing that song about a year ago in Austin, fell in love with that song then and still love it!!! Thanks Paula for a great CD, you are great. They should be playing that song on the radio, especially in Austin." - Kathy M, Austin, TX
"My heart is just full of their beauty. Your lyrics are just incredible." - Eva Andries, Austin, TX
"I LOVE 'You Got Love!' Such a beautiful song." - Erin Sologaistoa, Tallahassee, FL
"You obviously put your heart and soul into this incredible body of music ... I listened to the entire CD on Wednesday, on a DRIVE up north and back, and was delighted and inspired. Rich, gentle, warm and sparkling is how your music felt to me. Your voice as a writer and as a singer is so pleasing and expressive. Fantastic job!" - Katie Gosnell, Songwriter, Austin, TX
"I love the new Album. It was worth waiting for. You are beautiful and you make beautiful music." - Debra Mostue, Austin, TX
”Your investment in DRIVE really shows! It is excellent from all perspectives - songs, arrangements, production, packaging. I really hope it gets airplay, and I will be calling in to request it. Congratulations!” - David Michael, Austin, TX
“I start most days with going to your myspace music page and playing along with 'I Don't Care About the Moon.' That is about as near perfect a song as I've heard. You are an inspiration.” - Henry Hall, Tallahassee, FL
"I want to tell you that I absolutely love it. I plan to play it for friends and consider it for gifts." - Elaine Swain, Tallahassee, FL
"I received your beautiful CD yesterday. Beautiful in every way. What a wonderful accomplishment and a gift to all. - Dee Custer, Portland, O
“Honest to God I think your CD measures right up therewith Norah Jones and Diana Krall. What a soothing sound! I literally listened to the entire CD 4x within 24 hours. Stephen Doster did a fantastic job for you. You are an exceptional writer and I appreciate who you are through your writings. ~ Jacquelyn Fraley, Austin, TX
“I received DRIVE and have listened to it several times in my car. It's a treasure. Thanks for baring your soul for the rest of us to connect to with strong feelings.” - Norma Reesor McDowell, Tallahassee FL
“Just thought I'd tell you that I listen to your album first when I go out to work in the studio. I can't tell you how much I love it!” - Susan Peacock, Tallahassee FL
CD project in pre-production
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NEW PROJECT: "Sangre Triste" I'm working on a collection of story songs. Individuals' struggles ...NEW PROJECT: "Sangre Triste"
I'm working on a collection of story songs. Individuals' struggles and their journeys of release. Stylistically intimate and panoramic, poetic and straightforward, they're drawn from a genre of poetry called Sangre Triste, which expresses the beauty of sadness.
This song is the first in this body of story songs that are unfolding. I wrote it after traveling through the North Texas Panhandle town of Happy. I was passing through on my way to Colorado. I stayed in a little motel called the Lasso. This song describes one of its reluctant residents painful situation, and her determination to leave her home town.
"New Snow Falling"
This song came about as a result of my need for time alone in the snowy woods in New England. A place where you get the kind of quiet only new snow falling brings. The kind of place a writer longs for. It tells the story of a mother and wife, a woman who's lost touch with her own voice and creativity. Who has built her identity around her children and husband. Who has learned to sublimate her needs, emotions, goals, dreams and plans in order to be a model parent and wife. One snowy evening in a late winter, all her feelings of loss around her identity coalesce into one moment in time. She falls silent as she surrenders her mind to the intimate sound of new snow falling. She's in her kitchen fixing dinner while her kids and husband and home all whirl around her with noisy, mind-numbing activity. Suddenly, wthout warning, she folds. She tunes into the new snow falling, it's grace and simplicity and utter quiet as the flakes build layer after layer outside her kitchen window. Suddenly she's on the kitchen floor beneath the boiled over broccoli and the fallen souffle. She finds a pen and some paper and starts writing. There's a blizzard outside, and one in her mind, and she sits on the floor and writes, “and no one's talking, and no one's speaking save for the sound of new snow falling.” She finds her voice again. It is her rebirth.
"She'll Be Her Fred Astaire"
This song deals with alienation. The kind of non-acceptance teenagers in high school go through all the time. It's tenth grade in a small New England town. A young lesbian named Lena struggles with being an outcast. She's become dependent on pot to deal with her pain, and she's been delivered a school dare to dance at the Junior Prom with Doris, the woman she's in love with. Her best friend Julieann puts together a plan to help Lena by teaching her to dance. Lena wants to overcome her fear and dance with Doris. She also knows that Julieann is in love with her. She knows that Julieann loves her enough to sublimate her feelings for Lena to help her win over Doris. It's a tender story about the strong and tender bonds of friendship in high school.
Other songs in this project include:
"Here," is a song that celebrates unconditional love, from God, a partner, a caring friend.
"Tyler Blue" is set in Corpus Christie, and tells the story of a young mother, unable to move through her grief over the loss of her childhood sweetheart husband who was killed in the Iraq war. The story is told as a silent dialogue between her and her dead husband.
"Lila and Jack" is about an affair between two loners, and how they both deal with their feelings when Jack breaks it off to recommit to his wife.
I'm really excited about this new project. Please check back for developments as this project unfolds, or go to www,paulaheld.com/about_sangre.asp
Me, Myself and a Bottle of Wine - An Interview with Myself
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Next to giving birth to and raising my son John, making this record has been one of the most soul-st...Next to giving birth to and raising my son John, making this record has been one of the most soul-stirring events in my life. Being under the radar of official press, me and myself opened a bottle of cab one night, and conducted our own interview through one long conversation and several glasses of wine.
Me: How does it feel to have made a record after so many years? How did motherhood affect the process?
Myself: It felt great to make the record, but it took a long time to own that feeling. It was hard to release myself from my role as a parent to follow my muse. I made a lot of leaps of faith to do it, but only after I knew John was on his own path, and I was just a gentle wind at his back. Being an artist, craving time alone, needing freedom from time constraints has never left me, but my priorities for 22 years were to give my son the best start I could. Though I've never felt settled anywhere, I practiced this odd ritual of constancy for so long, I learned to appreciate its merits. I've not been able to completely cut myself adrift from that, though I ache to totally give in to my wanderlust and create a life that would let me write all the time. I think often of selling all my stuff, my house, all my clothes except what I could put in a trunk, reduce my possessions to just what I'd need to live out of a pop up camper or small trailer; take a long trip. I want to so much, but I can't quite bring myself to do it.
Me: Why not?
Myself: I'd still need a place to live when I got home. I've dreamed of having a guest room since getting to Austin. I'd like to have a place for my son and his girlfriend to stay when they come to visit. It wouldn't solve the bigger issue.
I've been in recovery from so many things in my life. I can be addicted to anything. I was in AA long enough to understand the phrase “no such thing as a geographic cure.” We moved so much when I was a kid, every year and a half or so, sometimes less. Now, wherever I move to, at two years almost to the day, I start thinking that I've got to get the pictures down and start giving things away. For a long time I wouldn't put any pictures up until several months had passed. When John was growing up I made a point of staying in one town. But we moved from house to house at about the same rate we did when I was growing up.
I think there's a deep connection for me between movement and creativity, and an odd healing process is taking place that's showing up as this struggle between ditching it all and staying put. I'm trying to teach myself that it's okay to have a home and a life as a writer, have my wanderlust part of the year, without giving up every thing I own. That maybe it's the movement I want, not the move. Over the last 15 years I've been practicing resisting the urge to run, trying on the idea that I can be happy and settled in one place longer than five years. It's hard to change those road maps that make you want to do things that no longer serve you.
Right now though, it's going on a little over five years in my house here in Austin, and I feel that struggle in fine relief. Like a character from a Graham Greene novel, I live with my heart in two worlds. The title track of the record, I Need To Drive, is about that duality. The song was written as a letter to my house, the house I live in now in Austin.
Me: Tell me about Jeanette Walls ... you dedicated I Need to Drive to her.
Myself: Jeanette Walls is the author of a memoir called The Glass Castle. It's a beautiful, painful portrait of childhood chaos. The kind created by two brilliant, free-spirited parents unable to put down roots or offer any stability to their kids because of their creative urges and demons. The family was constantly on the move. I feel like the kid she was in the book, watching little pieces of your life disappear through the car's back windshield, trying so hard to hold onto it, and then, through that combination of resilience and denial that children are famous for, turning around and embracing the next adventure.
Me: Tell me about the record. How did you come up with the title “DRIVE.”
Myself: Stephen came up with it. And it was perfect. The title track, I Need To Drive, which was written for the record, touches briefly on the concept of flight vs settled-ness. The fact that we moved every 12-18 months till I was 12 years old shaped my relationship to relationships, and the rest of the record is one big song about the hellos and goodbyes to love.
The word “DRIVE” can mean something different to everyone. To me it means 'let go, surrender.' I made my way back to songwriting from motherhood by finally letting go of the need to control events in my life and trust the Universe, or God, to get me where I needed to go. My heart was set on songwriting and music. I started taking big leaps of faith. I reconnected with a divine source in AA, and learned that jumping was not only safe, but preferable, and that it's more crazy to not let go than it is to cling to the cliff.
Life is a struggle between control and surrender, same as driving a car. Driving involves moving the mechanical elements forward, that's all. You have to drive the car. You have to deal with life's painful realities. But that's it. The rest is trust and go. It's cool that on top of all that it turned out to be a great driving record.
Me: Are you happy with the record? Tell me about your producer, Stephen Doster. How did you find him?
Myself: I can't say enough about how proud I am of this project, and so much of the credit goes to Stephen. “DRIVE” was recorded on 2” analog tape at EAR studio in East Austin. Tape was a pre-requisite for me. My father used tape in all his years composing and recording in NY. I think, from listening to pop music over the years, that tape offers a warmth and aliveness to recording. I don't know if digital can match it. It sounds different to me. It could be perception, nostalgia, but I don't think so.
I knew from hanging around ArtZ Rib House that someone named Doster recorded to tape, but I also wanted a producer who would understand me and my music. Also, I knew I needed a gentle person, because it would be my first time recording, and I wasn't confident. After a few years in Austin working on craft and taking voice lessons, I started to feel like I might have ten songs I could get behind to record. That's when I started asking around about producers, and Stephen's name kept coming up.
After talking with Lee Duffy at ASG (Austin Songwriters Group), who knew my work from their weekly song doctor sessions, I went and listened to Stephen play with his trio at Ztejas on 6th Street. I knew immediately I'd found the right guy. Though I didn't know initially who he was, I was sitting next to the stage and struck up a conversation between songs with the guy sitting closest on the stage to my table. There was an instant connection. Eventually he introduced himself as Stephen Doster, and we agreed to meet and talk about working together on the record.
We began meeting at my house every Monday afternoon. Initially I thought he would want to hear me play, and listen to the songs I wanted to record. Instead, we spent hours discussing music, the creative process, our respective histories, our musical heroes. When I told him one of my favorite records was Jack Bruce's Harmony Row, he got excited and said Jack Bruce was one of his all-time favorite musicians. He later told me it was one of the many coincidences during that time that made him realize he was the right guy to produce my record. We didn't just talk about music. Stephen talked about his childhood, his time growing up in Germany and in Texas, the San Antonio Spurs, his cat and especially his family. He talked a lot about his son Django. He's a dedicated husband and father and I came to deeply appreciate and respect him as a person during that time. He also gave me a copy of his first record Rosebud to listen to, and I'm still listening to it. It's a great record.
I feel so much gratitude for the amount of time Stephen spent with me before agreeing to produce the record. He needed to see who I was first. He never heard me play before he green-lighted the project. Though he'd asked around about me, it was only later when I went to one of his song-pitch sessions at the ASG symposium in '09 that he heard me sing one of my songs. He told me later that after he'd heard me play, he did a “YES!” and said he was relieved to know I really could sing and play. After that we started playing the songs down and pretty quickly came up with 10 or 12 songs to choose from. We still met on Mondays as his time allowed. I know he did this to develop trust so I could relax in the studio. Stephen takes his work very seriously. His goal is to make the best record possible of an artist's work. He knew, since it would be my first record, that I needed him behind me every step of the way. I remember calling him late one night, ranting and scared about what was about to happen. He said, “I've been doing this a long time. You're ready. I've got your back. Hurry up and know it!” He went over the top to make sure I was at ease before I ever stepped foot in EAR. I'll always love him for that.
Stephen's become one of my favorite people in the world. He has integrity, which is sorely missing in so many people. It's fed by his deep respect and concern for people, but he doesn't shout it. He lives it. That's so rare. I keep learning from him. He's like a brother to me. My own brother Timmy died in May of 2008 from kidney failure. He'd been mired in addiction for so long, that we'd all lost touch with the Timmy we'd known as kids. He was funny and real, and had a fierce sense of loyalty to his friends. Just like Stephen. On the front panel of the lyrics sheet of the record is a quote by Rumi, 'Do not grieve. Anything you lose comes back in another form.' Across the panel are pictures of all the performers and people involved in the record. Losing Timmy in May, and then my Mother in December of that year is why that quote is there. This record came together at the end of two long years of watching my brother and my mother's health decline and then losing them both. It helped me deal with the grief. It was a distraction on one hand, but it was also a place where I could process those feelings of loss. And it gave me a family again for a little while.
Me: Describe the production, the players, the process. What was it like recording at EAR?
Myself: I think the production on this record is perfect for these songs. Stephen's percussive arrangements and choice of players elevate the ten songs in a way I never imagined. Some of Austin's best musicians contributed to it: J.J. Johnson on drums & percussion, Chris Maresh on double bass, Stephen on guitar, Red Young on Hammond Organ and keys, Ephraim Owens on trumpet and Dennis Ludiker on strings. Their performances took my songs from their bare-bones guitar/vocal renditions and put them in a castle on a spare winter day amidst rolling hills with a glint of sunlight coming through the clouds of a sunset washing the stone in pink and gold, with black crows flying into the rising midnight.
When I got the first mix of just the bass and drums to practice to, I was lying on the floor with headphones on and melted into tears, it was so beautiful. J.J. and Chris laid down such a sensual bottom to the songs that they were flying. We also used several live takes of my vocals and guitar and Stephen's guitar. I fought with him, but he wouldn't let me redo the vocals. 'It's got soul, man, it's music!' I had handed him the project with total faith at the onset, and I knew if there was anything blaringly wrong with my performance he'd let me fix it. So I let go of my insecurities at that point. Some of the most beautiful notes on the record come from Stephen and Red's playing. Stephen's solo on You're My Falling Star breaks my heart. It's so simple, so wrenchingly beautiful. When Red's hands touched the first keys to lay down piano on that song, the control room fell stone quiet, and we just sat with our mouths hanging open till the end of the song. Stephen got up to the mic and shook his head and said, “Man, that was, we're just, you just, you killed me man ... and you gotta make Paula stop crying.” By the time Red finished playing on Winter Blossom, I was weeping. Part of it was that this record meant so much to me. But also I understood on some level that the songs inspired these musicians, they had to, to get those performances.
Me: What was it like mixing the tracks?
Myself: I got out of the way. Stephen said, subtly to me one day, “You know, you don't have to be at the studio when we're mixing. It might even be best that way, but of course, it's up to you.” Stephen's an expert at making suggestions without hurting your feelings. I think that's one of the reasons he such a great producer. He's sensitive, and hip. I remember how he would let one of the players know if he wanted another take. He'd say “Hey man, that was great. Want to try it again?” Or, “Hey man, that was really great, how'd you feel about it?” His timing and tact is impeccable, with or without a guitar in his hands.
James Stevens, the co-engineer on the project, created a mix that for the life of me, I could not see how it could be improved upon in mastering. I tried to convince them both to let us release it like that. It took three tries to get something in a master that was close. I was married to the studio mix, but we went with the master.
Me: Talk about the artwork.
Myself: The jacket design was done by Renee Fernandez at Decoder Ring Design Concern here in Austin. It took several months to complete, and it's been worth the wait. It's absolutely beautiful. A work of art. She did a fantastic job putting all the images together to make a visual statement of the record. I gave her my thoughts about the title and what I wanted to convey, images from the songs I wanted in the design, that I wanted heavy use of color, a painterly look etc. Then she came up with this amazing cover. It's visually stunning and underscores the duality that I was talking about before: the title says “DRIVE,” but the image beneath it is of woman in a hot air balloon (actually an image of the moon). All but three of the ropes holding the basket to the balloon are frayed, broken and blowing in the wind behind her. Her arms are thrust out before her, open wide to the journey ahead. She's held aloft by a few threads, but she's moving forward, embracing what's ahead. The image partially refers to a line in the song Moon's Too Bright.
Me: What's next?
Myself: I'm supposed to promote the hell out of this record. My mind is a whir of new songs. Stephen had said once that “DRIVE” was the record I'd been waiting my whole life to make. That's true, because it's my first, and I honestly didn't think I'd ever be ready. Now I know I've got several records in me, and they all want to come out at once. “DRIVE” is a sensual record about love. Now I want to make a different record. Romantic love's been done and done and done. I've thrown my penny into the fountain, at least for now. I know I'll come back to it. I'm working on a collection of songs that deal with characters caught in uncompromisingly difficult situations, but through which, via the devices of denial or veiled hope, grace or the act of surrender, there is a small opening to crawl out. It's tentatively called “Sangre Triste,” which means Sad Blood, and refers to a genre of poetry that's particularly cathartic.
One of these songs came out of my need for the last year, for time alone in the woods, in New England somewhere, in the dead of Winter. The kind of place where you get the kind of quiet you can only get from new snow falling. None of my efforts to make that happen have panned out. It's not supposed to happen yet I guess. So I wrote a song about it instead, called New Snow Falling. It's about a woman who comes unglued in her kitchen while her kids and husband and home all whirl around her, and she finds this pen and a sheaf of paper and just starts writing, and there's a blizzard outside, as well as one in her mind, and she sits there on the floor of the kitchen writing, and all she hears is the sound of new snow falling. It's a rebirth.
Me: Sum up what you've learned during your first time making a record.
Myself: I have a recording lexicon and I can throw around cool words like overdub, analog, high end, 'feel good song,' project, etc. I've learned I have another addiction to feed. And, for several weeks now, I keep hearing a voice say “Your life is going to change ...” and then it feels like something extraordinary is about to happen.
Originals: Pop, Pop-jazz, Folk, Rock, Americana, Blues
Covers: Jazz Standards & Classic Rock to Texas Swing, Country Folk & the Blues