Mark Allan Jensen

For over 30 years, I dragged myself through the darkest places in life trying to make something out of the trailer trash that I was born. I spent my entire childhood being looked over, unheard, unwanted. I never saw music as a way to get noticed by people and I never knew I could write a song until I poured out my soul to God on a pawn shop acoustic guitar that was so warped it couldn't hold tune and made my fingers hurt just to play one chord.  

When people began to tell me how much they liked my songs, I started sharing more of them. When people started telling me that I should be famous, I began believing them... .sadly.. and I lost sight of what music really meant to me, and I also lost sight of me. In 1999 I attempted suicide several times in a 3 week period... the last landing me in ICU overnight with doctors saying they didn't think I'd make it. I spent the next 2 years in mental hospitals/homes being force fed psychotropic drugs and being subjected to several shock treatments. I was diagnosed as schizophrenic, bi polar with a personality disorder.. and so on. In 2001, the courts finally released me back to society and in 2003 I began to ween myself off of the drugs that had made me so numb I didn't write a single song the entire 4 years that they drugged me.... So for the last several years, I cannot tell you if I've been trying to find me or if I've been running from me. I've endured homelessness, jail time, abandonment, hellish relationships, loneliness, hunger, nakedness; I've been in danger so many times I've almost become desensitized to it.... it's as if I've been cursed like Cain... to be a restless wanderer on the face of the Earth. As sad as it is , this is only a fraction of my story. These simple songs are just the cries of my soul from this valley of darkness, they can never be understood or appreciated by those of you who live on the mountain tops. They are not products of my attempt to stir your soul with things I have never felt or understood; they are little pieces of my shredded soul.