Michaela Boykin

Michaela Boykin

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My Happy Ending

Written By: Michaela Boykin

Please can you stop me from falling?
Your stairs have crumbled under my feet and I’m slipping over the edge
On my hands and knees I am crawling
But I still can’t see the future you promised me
So long ago
So long ago

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How many years do I have to live before I can feel alive?
How many sleeping pills will it take to wake me up inside?
Where has my new beginning gone?
I’ve reached my happy ending and I am all alone

Blind and numb I am running
Down a path that an unfair world gave for me to follow
So why am I still so trusting?
Thinking it might just lead me to where I wanna be
Where I belong
Where I belong

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How many years do I have to live before I can feel alive?
How many sleeping pills will it take to wake me up inside?
Where has my new beginning gone?
I’ve reached my happy ending and I am all alone

A system of lies is a stranger
To a generation full of anger
Pushed and shoved we are forced into line
But all I want is a future that’s really mine
Set me free
Set me free

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How many years do I have to live before I can feel alive?
How many sleeping pills will it take to wake me up inside?
Where has my new beginning gone?
I’ve reached my happy ending and I am all alone

Unspeakable Words

Written By: Michaela Boykin

I'm lying behind this sincerity of mine
Adding some fiction to my reality
Too scared to tell you how much I'm hurting
Praying you'll see the pain so deep inside me
Don't believe me when I say I'm okay
And when I tell you to go, promise me you'll stay

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When I push you away
That's just me asking you to push back harder
If I say I'm too scared to go on
That's me begging you to take me farther
Tell me that you understand
Though I know it's absurd
To think you can hear
These unspeakable words

Do you know why I can't tell you the truth?
It's the fear that you'll stop listening
That you'll walk out the door
Even as you see my tears glistening
So don't believe me when I say I'm okay
Not once, not ever, especially not today

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My words are in code
And you're the detective
When I pass you in line
Notice how I'm defective

And don't believe me when I say I'm okay
Not once, not ever, especially not today
When I tell you to go, promise me you'll stay

Chorus

Don't believe me when I say I'm okay...

Father of Silence

Written By: Michaela Boykin

Chorus
Silence
Sing me to sleep with your sweet voice
Give me a shelter from all the noise
Because we both know how much sound destroys

I still hear you taunting me
Don’t you know that your words haunt me?
A whisper, a lie
No tears left to cry
Only countless years to wonder why

Light the match
Burn the past
But still the smoke keeps swirling back

Silence
Sing me to sleep with your sweet voice
Give me a shelter from all the noise
Because we both know how much sound destroys

Slowly I start to disappear
You made sure I couldn’t stay here
My ears are broken
From the words you’ve spoken
Now silence is my only token

Light the match
Burn the past
But still the smoke keeps swirling back

All my life you’ve kept falling farther
From the man I used to call my father
And honestly I can’t be bothered
I’m saying goodbye
To you and the hate I see in your eyes

Silence
Sing me to sleep with your sweet voice
Give me a shelter from all the noise
Because we both know how much sound destroys

Light the match
Burn the past
But still the smoke keeps swirling back
I’m walking away and I won’t turn back

Without Regret

Written By: Michaela Boykin

Days are passin' by, I don't feel alright
Get through the monotony, go to sleep at night
The stress is pilin' up, weighing down on my shoulders
And I know it will get heavier as I grow older

But there's a way to be OK
Get lost in the music, find your own way

Chorus
These are the days we'll always remember
These are the times we'll never forget
The moments we both opened up
And lived without regret
And even though our lives are changing
As the seconds pass us by
We'll always have these moments
To keep us going if we try

Feel the rhythm in a smile, laugh in melody
We have the power to fight the world, together you and me
And this is feeling is so strong it takes away all the rest
Beats down the struggles that put our faith to the test

There's a way to be OK
Get lost in the music, find your own way

Chorus

Time flows like a river
Swiftly around a bend
Just as we start to find ourselves
We get lost in the current again
But if we take time to look around
We can slow these waters down

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So let's live without regret

The Unknown

Written By: Michaela Boykin

Can you tell me where I'm going?
It all seems so dark from here
Around every corner lurk
The shadows that I fear
I'm still searching for a light to help me find my way
Searching for an answer to keep these doubts at bay
But like a house of mirrors I find only my reflection
And inside those darkened eyes there lies no direction

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As I set off to face the unknown
I know I'm on my own
It's just me against my destiny
My future's coming at me way too fast
Colliding with my past
That keeps catching up behind me

My footsteps echo in my head
As they leave traces of my past
This ground is nothing but a canvas
For a painting that will never last
Because everything we do here slowly fades with time
And if I can't stay true here then my whole life is a crime
So I measure every step I take in terms of smiles and tears
They're all that seem to matter when I look back on these lonely years

Chorus

I need to find the strength to keep on moving forward
The wisdom to finally see the life I am moving toward
And until I do I know that I won't get to sleep at night
My eyes will not rest without my faith in their sight

Chorus

I'm off to face the unknown
Me against my destiny
My future colliding with my past
As they battle deep inside of me
Deep inside of me