Miserable Crush

Miserable Crush

BandAlternativeFolk

Take the thoughtful lyrics of bands like Death Cab For Cutie and Bright Eyes. Take the complex musical arrangements of artists like Sufjan Stevens. Then throw in the catchy pop sensibilities that can make any song irresistible. What you get is Miserable Crush.

Biography

Both of us have always been somewhat musical, but it was separately so. The first instrument I learned to play was the cello - which was promptly put aside when we moved to a school that didn't have an orchestra. For a few years, I didn't play anything. My brother Mitchell, meanwhile, was singing in choir and getting shifted around from instrument to instrument in the school band until he finally got settled on the drums. Even when I finally started playing music again, when I started learning the keyboard, the guitar, and the tin whistle, Mitchell and I weren't playing together.

The thing that got it started, really, was one show. Somebody was trying to put on a fundraiser and they needed a band. My brothers heard about it and somehow I got pulled in as the guitarist. My older brother Tad did the vocals and Mitchell played the drums. We practiced compulsively and I wrote a few songs for the occasion.

When the show finally did come, virtually nobody showed up to the event. But it was alright, playing to that empty space. Something felt right about playing, so we kept playing together for the rest of the summer. When summer ended and college came around again, Mitchell and I kept playing together. I kept writing. He kept drumming. And between the two of us, Miserable Crush was formed.

- Matthew

Lyrics

Miserable

Written By: Matthew White

I have always been a boring guy. My jokes are dry and overdone.
It's been awhile since I've been so wide-eyed. I know I'm not the only one.
I'm disillusioned just like all of you, but don't you worry. I won't lie.
My words aren't pretty, but you know they're true. Which you can't say for any other guy.

I want to be miserable with you. Want to see you cross your fingers when you say “I love you too”.
I want to be miserable with you. Want to roll my eyes and pull my hair with everything you do.

I cannot say I'm very stable. I like the summertime the best.
Any other time of year and I get cripplingly depressed.
If my resentment were a mountain, you'd have to scale Olympus Mons.
So it's good that you won't know it's there till we've split up and you're long gone.

I want to be miserable with you. Want to see you cross your fingers when you say “I love you too”.
I want to be miserable with you. Want to roll my eyes and pull my hair with everything you do.

Love has never been enough. Love has never been enough.
Love has never been enough. Love has never been enough.

I want to be miserable with you. Want to see you cross your fingers when you say “I love you too”.
I want to be miserable with you. Want to roll my eyes and pull my hair with everything you do.

I want to be miserable with you. Want to see you cross your fingers when you say “I love you too”.
I want to be miserable with you. Want to roll my eyes and pull my hair with everything you do.

I want to be miserable with you. Want to see you cross your fingers when you say “I love you too”.
I want to be miserable with you. Want to roll my eyes and pull my hair with everything you do.

I have always been a boring guy. At least, that's what my exes say.

Jade

Written By: Matthew White

Jade is on her way. In her pure white dress she looks lovely today.
Jade is chasing love as she holds the hands of the ones disposed of.
Jade, she yearns to play, but her pale white skin keeps her inside all day.
Jade, she fills a hole, but she can't replace the part they stole.

And she asks why. Why is it so tough? Learning to be loved? Learning to be loved?

Jade, I'm so sorry babe, but we can't play this game today.
So it goes, we took things slow, but we both know we're not ok.

Jade, she steals my heart every time I find it ripped apart.
Jade infects the soul and in time she'll have complete control.

I awake with a knot in my chest, feeling clammy sweat on my burning head.
Draw the shades and reveal the world outside. It disappoints again.
And although the sheets beside me seem so empty in the dark,
I feel Jade wrap her arms around me, bringing strength into my heart - into my heart. Into my heart.

Jade, I'm so sorry babe, but we can't play this game today.
So it goes, we took things slow, but we both know we're not ok.

Jade, so filled with fear. She learned to hide by her first year.
Jade, so insincere. How the lies define her hard veneer.

And she asks why. Why is it so tough? Learning to be loved? Learning to be loved?

Jade, I'm so sorry babe, but we can't play this game today.
So it goes, we took things slow, but we both know we're not ok.

Jade, I'm so sorry babe, but we can't play this game today.
So it goes, we took things slow, but we both know we're not ok. Jade, I'm so sorry.

Thorns

Written By: Matthew White

She's the perfect girl, the perfect face, the perfect distance. She's the one I'll never meet.
We have history in the same way that psychopaths have friends. We met from a thousand feet.

She acts so kind inside my mind, inside my mind. Don't want to find it's all a lie.
She looks so nice from miles away, from miles away. Don't let this feeling fade away.

Please don't ruin this for me. Please don't ruin this for me. It's too easy for you.

It's her perfect laugh, her perfect smile, those perfect crooked teeth. Always barely out of reach.
It's the kind of feeling you can only get when unfulfilled - only from a thousand feet.

So I'll hold back awhile and wait just a little longer. Bide my time until the seconds escape.
So I'll hold back awhile and wait just a little longer. Don't take the thought that I love away.

Please don't ruin this for me. Please don't ruin this for me. It's too late.

If ever we could meet, ruin all my fantasies.
Why search through thorns when there may never be a rose?
It tears my skin every time I try again.
Why search through thorns when there may never be a rose?

If we could meet, shatter all my fantasies.
Why search through thorns when there may never be a rose?
You pierce my skin every time I try again.
Why search through thorns when there may never be a rose?

There may never be a rose.

Please don't ruin this for me. There may never be a rose.
Please don't ruin this for me. There may never be a rose.
Please don't ruin this for me. There may never be a rose.
Please don't ruin this.

Always

Written By: Matthew White

Hey there,
it's been awhile,
how long has it been since
you've stood on this street

So many years
since you went away
you know they're all gone
no one's left except me

You were always,
the one I was waiting for,
Always,
the one that I need
Always,
looking for something more,
But I always knew you weren't looking for me

I lost my reason,
everyone needs a why,
Mine shouldn't have
been so external to me

The memory's fading,
the old times have passed,
It no longer matters
if you choose to leave

You were always,
the one I was waiting for,
Always,
the one in my dreams
Always,
looking for something more,
But I always knew you weren't looking for me

Please stop
I can't bear to feel this way
I don't have the strength
to resist you tonight

Life goes on,
forward in every way
I know on our own
that we'll both be just fine

You were always,
the one I was waiting for,
Always,
the one that I need,
Always,
the one I was praying for,
But I always knew you weren't praying for me,

You were always,
the one I was waiting for,
Always,
the one in my dreams,
Always,
looking for something more,
Hope that you found it cause you can't have me.

Broken

Written By: Matthew White

It seems to me every moment in my life was driving me on towards this.
Reality isn't something I do well and yet through it all life persists.
I've heard the words before, but never knew what they meant.
Now it's so clear to me, the feeling will never relent.

Nothing speaks louder than this. Now I know why I exist.
I'm finally home. I'm finally home tonight.

Over the years we've learned to always play for the win.
Never helped. We all get burned again and again and again.
She's so afraid of life, she'd rather not live at all.
Won't take a flying leap, she's simply unwilling to fall.

Endlessly drifting away. Will she be distant today?
Life is just fine. Life is just fine. You'll see.

Has life ever seemed to you to be on an infinite loop?
The troubles go by so fast, but always come back just as soon.
She'll never stop searching for a life that will never exist.
There's always this look in her eyes that's asking what she could've missed.

Sometimes the broken can't be healed. Sometimes the pain can't be concealed.
Is this goodbye? This is goodbye. I guess.

Discography

A Miserable Demo (2013)

Set List

Our set list varies based on the venue and the desired length of the show. A given set may include:

Miserable
Nothing
Thorns
Always
Jade
Sick Embrace
Broken
Sisyphus
Losing It
Waiting
Home Movies
More
The Baptism
Oh God
Guide To Dating
The Lamest Superhero
Dreams Of

If a much longer set is required, we sometimes integrate covers into the mix.