Stephanie Spijkerman

Stephanie Spijkerman

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Biography

Writing poems and stories since she was a teenager, Stephanie began to write song lyrics about 6 years ago. She was inspired by a new love for country music which she discovered not long before that.
Reading about the International Songwriting Competition on a trip to Nashville in 2005 she wrote “Rollercoaster” and entered, becoming a semi finalist at that first attempt.
Single and working fulltime to make ends meet it sometimes is hard to find time to create new work. Although also successful at a management career she hopes to one day make it as a lyricist and give up her day job. Still trying to learn the ropes she continues to spend as much time as possible writing and in the meantime entering various online competitions.
Writing “lyrics only” limits the possibilities so Stephanie is looking for collaborators to help her put her words to music. Anyone who’s interested to create a melody to the lyrics in her EPK can contact her.
You can also find her on Taxi’s musicians junction. If you yourself are looking for someone to add a lyric to your music let her give it a shot!
Her main interest is in country ( old and new), Americana and rock. She’s no purist who thinks that anything successful can not be good. As long as it is good!

Honor Award winner in the 9th Annual Great American Song Contest 2007 in the lyrics only category for "Chardonnay".

The song "A Summer Girl" has received a Honorable Mention in the Lyrics Only category in the 2007 International Songwriting Competition (ISC).

Semi finalist in the lyrics only category in the 2005 International Songwriting Competition for "Rollercoaster"

Lyrics

rollercoaster

Written By: stephanie spijkerman

When I was young
I had a mind that roamed
Everywhere
There wasn’t a place I couldn’t go
If it existed or not
I would get there

When I was young
I dreamt of forever running
Wild
Of having wings and flying
I knew that I was
A lucky child

Chorus:
Roller coasters and Ferris wheels
I ride them everyday
I know how it feels
To spin the world around
Until it falls in place
Until I hit the ground

I used to have my doubts
About who I was
growing to be
moving to the future with my flaws
And insecurities
Growing with me

I used to feel alone
Sitting waiting in a cocoon
A butterfly
A traveller up in a balloon
Looking at the world
far from the sky

Chorus:
Fairytales and nursery rhymes
I tell them everyday
Create my own sometimes
To make the world seem right
Until I fall in place
Until I sleep at night

I am a circus
Audience and show combined
The answers that I have to guess
And the questions in my mind
I’m the feeling that’s just not right
The decision that feels good
Black and sometimes white
I’m all the animals at the zoo

Chardonnay

Written By: stephanie Spijkerman

You said what you wanted to say
Fired words that had me executed
Then you just walked away
And left me behind wounded
Now I’m here with holes in my heart
And a 1990 bottle of Chardonnay
That is ready to play its part
In my attempts to forget this day

Chorus:
I open the bottle
Pour myself a drink
Still being subtle
Still able to think
Please take me away
Chardonnay

By the time I’ve had three glasses
My memories already seem to fade
I’m losing track of the time that passes
I get this nagging feeling it’s too late
I repeat the words you have said
This time I’ve put up my defenses
But the sound drowns in my head
I guess I’m losing hold of my senses

Chorus:
The bottle is half empty
My glass is half filled
I can not see clearly
The wine has spilled
Into my blood
My legs get numb
I’m swaying and I’m hot
Waiting for the knock out to come
I’m drinking you away
Chardonnay

When I see again nothing has changed
Something is throbbing behind my eyes
Could be the memories battling in my brain
Could be your hard hitting lies
The world spins around me
I’m floating and I lose control
Unbalanced, speechless and shaky
I wish that bottle was still full

Chorus;
The bottle is empty
The pain is there still
I can feel misery
Coming in for the kill
Take all that I’ve got
This day is so long
That I’m losing the plot
I don’t remember why you are gone
I wish you would stay
Chardonnay

lover went away

Written By: stephanie spijkerman

His boots stand at the doorway
a sign of his demise
like he evaporated
and went up into the sky

I hope that on his last day
When he knew that it was time
He sat a while and waited
Hoping the moment would pass by

chorus:
But he couldn't feel love
So he got up
And walked away bare footed
Taking his decision
As if he understood
As if he had a vision

I wanted him to be happy
But I knew he never was
Still I held on to him tightly
Like a desperate lover does

I imagine he kept on walking
All the way up to the sun
And that he found a rainbow
Where he could come undone

chorus:
He couldn't feel the love
So he took off
Without a goodbye or a bag
Leaving everything
He always lacked
Behind in his past

I think he was a rebel
Going against the grain
He tried hard to avoid hell
But knew it was in vain

I believe he was an outlaw
I didn't know him very well
Or maybe not at all
Or why he said farewell

Chorus:
I do not know his intent
Or where he went
I do not have a clue
I'm still just guessing
If he was the truth
A curse or a blessing

I make this man a mystery
A puzzle in my mind
I see him run away from me
And leaving me behind
Then make up his excuses
Of why he must have lied
I think of him anyway I choose
I can not say goodbye

He must have been
A desperado
who rode into thin air
Never looking back
wanting that despair
To stop dead in his tracks

a summer girl

Written By: stephanie spijkerman

Her mother called her Summer
When they got her on a dreary day
She was meant to bring in sunshine
She should keep the cold away

When she grew up they gave her love
And everything else she wanted
But all that just wasn’t enough
To keep her soul from wondering

Chorus:
Summer what a beautiful name
Sounds so pretty and so bright
But Summer feels like rain
Not at all like sunlight

Her mother believed that baby girl
Would fill the house with laughter
To kill the silence that had been
And make a happy ever after

Summer smiled a lot of smiles
Worked hard to be what was expected
Ignoring the questions in her mind
She wasn’t happy but tried to act it

Chorus:
Summer what a beautiful name
Sounds so pretty and so bright
But Summer feels like rain
Not at all like sunlight

Summer feels like winter
The cold there to torment her
She didn’t feel like it was good
To be longing for the truth
While trying to fulfill her mother’s dreams
Summer was not what she seemed to be

Chorus:
Summer what a beautiful name
But she carries it with shame
Summer feels like snow
Coming down real slow

Rodeo tale

Written By: stephanie spijkerman

Once every year
When the rodeo gets in town
All wannabe cowboys get into gear
Ready to play around
They swagger and they sway
In their toughest poses
Drinking their beers away
In heavy doses

Trying to act cool
Strutting around their stuff
Telling giant tales
Thinking no one gets their bluff
Chatting to the girls
Tipping the brim of their hats
Like man of the world
Placing their bets

Chorus:
I bet you I can ride that bull
I bet you I win every dual
I bet you I can drink you under the table
I bet you that tomorrow morning
I wish I could remember now
But that I’ll be unable

Look at those buckaroos
In their brand new shirts
In their shiny boots
That never have seen dirt
Smoking some Marlboros
In pleated wrangler jeans
You want to let them know
That they are way too clean

And in the big arena
All the really manly man
Hold the crowd in awe
As macho as they can
Unbreakable and robust
Before they will go down
Before biting the dust
Carried away by clowns

Chorus:
I bet you I can ride that bull
I bet you I win every dual
I bet you I can drink you under the table
I bet you that tomorrow morning
I wish I could remember now
But that I’ll be unable

I bet you I can ride that mustang
I bet you I can break a leg
And then just carry on again
I bet you I don’t need to brag
I’m tougher than the rest
I bet you soon it will be clear
I really am the best

Old song

Written By: stephanie spijkerman

We were music
For a little while
Playing a beautiful symphony
But we went from concert hall
To drinking bars
From orchestra to hard rock band
Violins became
Electric guitars

In the shadows
I see how we used to be
Before we put our pain in front
Before we let the doubt come in
And let it grow
Happiness slipping away so easily
It’s in the past
That’s all I know

Chorus:
From time to time
My heart will sing The memories of you and me
But it doesn’t matter how I try
To hold on to that song
It doesn’t change a thing
I can’t recall the melody
The words are gone

I think we were
A three cord tune
With just a little bit of truth
Then we let the lies take over
Turned us into blues
Lost our heart and soul in there
We cried and cried
Ended up bruised

Now in pictures
I see how we used to be
An intermezzo before a storm
Moments of our broken lives
Turned into a song
Three minutes thirteen seconds
The story of a love
Turned wrong

Repeat chorus

We both played around
And lied about it
We couldn’t rebound
trusting one another
To tell the truth
In the end we just were
an interlude

she's gone

Written By: stephanie spijkerman

I imagine her amidst flowers
Like roses perhaps
Or just plain dandelions
Running into my open arms
As I fall down on my knees
Pray I could have seen the signs
More easily.

I hear the song of her laughter
Echoing still loud
And bouncing of the walls
I’ve build around me
The sweetness of that sound
Before it dies, before it falls
Brings me down.

Chorus:
She’s gone
This is a dream
It’s all just in my head
Where her voice still screams
Reminding me of what I had
From where she fills my senses
Her presence is still clear
She can not disappear
Or escape from my defences

I’m still in her tight embrace
Not letting go
Still moving in her space
As if there is nothing else
Than the world she made
Beautiful and without pain
Or need to be afraid

I can still smell her hair
Like a summer day
Not a cloud in the air
Or an end to her smile
Nothing to hold us apart
She runs through my blood
Into my heart

Repeat chorus

She’s gone
Into a dream
Through the gates of heaven
Waiting for me forever
She is redeemed
There’s no more pain for her
But all the more for me
I have to believe
She is still here with me

The loser

Written By: stephanie spijkerman

Gambled time away in Vegas
Until his luck ran out
He got into a real mess
Now sees himself without
Money and those nice clothes
That swagger and the bluff
An episode comes to a close
He’s had enough
He’s had enough of aliens
Meeting new ones everyday
Wants to be free of suspense
Of all the games to play
You never know what’s real
If someone talks to you
Is he offering another deal
Or a teller of the truth

Chorus:
Too many drinks
Too many nights not sober
Telling lies without a blink
Of the eye
No one bursts your bubble
No one cares if you will die
Always getting into trouble
Running into bars
And out of money
Wearing a fake grin
See a girl and call her honey
You can claim so many woman
Without name

Staying in a lonely room
In a king size bed too big
Ocean picture on the wall
That makes him homesick
He’s searching for the ball
As he crawls into a corner
Looking for another trick
To pull out of his sleeve
Thinking there’s still hope
Afraid that is naive
All those different faces
That he has had
To wear to all those places
Smiling but being sad
Remember which one was real
His memory goes blank

Another day

Written By: stephanie spijkerman

It’s 2 am and I can’t sleep
Surrounded by the dark
All the secrets that it keeps
You’re not home yet
Still drinking the night away
I said that I would leave
But I guess that I will stay
At least another day
I guess I’ll wait and see
Just wait another day

Chorus:
Tomorrow
I might change my mind
And go some place where you can’t find me
Where you can’t talk and smile
And say that you will change
If I just stay
Another day

Your sorrows finally drowned
You walk in defeated
Knowing you have let me down
In all the things I needed from you
My heart is aching
I live with your mistakes
And realize what is at stake
When it comes down to love or hate
I love you and I stay
I stay another day

Chorus:
Tomorrow
I might change my mind
And go some place where you can’t find me
Where you can’t talk and smile
And say that you will change
If I just stay
Another day

I know the promises that you won’t keep
I know the choices you can’t make
I know that I can only give
And you can only take
Take time away from me
It ticks and slips away
Incapable to run
I stay another day

It’s 4 am
And you lay beside me
Your whiskey breath so close
I guess I can not get away
Wherever I may go
I’m followed by your ghost

our house

Written By: stephanie spijkerman

Our house

I remember the laughter and the joy
As it once bounced from the walls
I don’t know exactly how it was destroyed
How happiness became something so small
I’m ready to go out on my own
I’m going to leave this house of stone

You want to go back to the beginning
When we were making this place a home
When we were young and the kids still little
And we were a family and not both so alone
I know we can’t go back anymore
I’m going to leave this house of the poor

chorus
From the outside the paint hides a lot
But our house has foundations that rot
We both know it’s run down
Sinking deeper and deeper into the ground
We live in this shell hiding our lives
Each in our cells passing each other by
With empty rooms where doors are locked
Listening to the sound of the ticking clock

You promised me things would get better
Then painted our world the same color it was
You can’t go on forecasting better weather
I can not go on longing for greener grass
The waiting just gets too hard
I’m going to leave this house of cards

I’m telling you we have nowhere to go
In this race we can only end last
It’s no good to keep our hearts in limbo
There’s no magic trick to return to the past
I need to free us out of this impasse
I’m going to leave this house of glass

Repeat chorus

We got older and we grew apart
We watched our kids grow
And we did not
Love is a word from so long ago
I’m craving to hear it
Feeling it like before
Instead of having it disappear
More and more and more

all days are fine

Written By: stephanie spijkerman

There are days that nothing shines
Nothing works and nothing rhymes
All that can go wrong goes wrong
Things that can will come undone

There are days that have no sun
Without smiles or any fun
No one who will get my jokes
All things breakable will get broke

Days like that they just won’t stop
Even when I had enough
Is when rain first starts to drop
From the hapless sky above
But I’ll take it that the sun won’t shine
That things will get a little rough
Or that people are unkind
Long as I can be your love
Just the knowledge that you’re mine
Makes the rain fine
Yes rain is fine

There are days when I feel down
When my words just receive frowns
My boss axes all of my ideas
Hands out orders but never a please

There are days I wake up exhausted
If I ever had momentum I have lost it
I drag myself through every hour
Wishing for some superpowers

Days like that they just won’t stop
Even when I had enough
I’m nowhere closer to the top
Hurdles I can’t rise above
Too many answers I can’t find
Searching for the good stuff
But even with a weary mind
Long as I can be your love
Just the knowledge that you’re mine
Makes it all fine
Yes everything is fine

There are no days not worth living
Not as long as you are giving
Me your time of day
And taking my breath away
Don’t care about torrential rains
Jobload growing by the minute
Or my career getting delayed
Don’t care if I will ever make it
To what’s considered flying high
I get high on just your smile
You make everything shine
All days are fine

you must be lost

Written By: stephanie spijkerman

You must have lost your memory
Forgotten all you’ve promised me
Wandering around in some far place
Wondering about your old ways
What you did and are going to do
With strangers taking care of you

You must be going out of your mind
Having gone deaf and gone blind
To all the facts of your old life
Thinking that you must have a wife
Because you keep seeing my face
Another memory you cannot place

I know you must be lost out there
It’s something I need to believe
Can’t bear to think that you don’t care
That you would simply leave
Leave me behind with all this pain
That slammers hard and stings
Hammering a way through my veins
While you’re not feeling anything
You’re looking for your way home
You must be lost out there I know

You’re on a boat somewhere at sea
Spinning around uncontrollably
Fighting with all the elements
Hoping to spot some mainland
Navigating by the sun and stars
Thinking of me wherever you are

Beaten by weather and by waves
Your compass only points one way
So even if time runs endlessly
Someday you will be back with me
Yes you must be on that boat
That’s how I keep my hopes afloat

I know you must be lost out there
It’s something I need to believe
Can’t bear to think that you don’t care
That you would simply leave
Leave me behind with all this pain
That slammers hard and stings
Hammering a way through my veins
While you’re not feeling anything
You’re looking for your way home
You must be lost out there I know

Your fate is all that fills my head
I am uncertain and obsessed
Finding truth is a thing I dread
My heart sits restless in my chest
It will come to me real slow
I’m lost out here I know

anonymity

Written By: stephanie spijkerman

Sometimes I wish I could hide away
Where noone knows my name
Just linger and move through the day
Without playing games
No highlights and no shame
Just quietly walk down the street
In the crowd as just a face
With ground under my feet
That won’t be swept away
Just let me feel complete

Sometimes I wish I could begin again
Mold myself out of the clay
Rethink every decision that I made
And all there is to say
No flaws and no mistakes
Just find a place sunny and sweet
Somewhere out of the box
Where prejudice can be deleted
And doors can be unlocked
just be an empty sheet

If eyes would look the other way
And leave me be
Not on display
My identity just for me
My secrets still for keeps
And dreams alive up in the air
Drifting endlessly
On a rollercoaster at the fair
Moving fast and being free
Wind blowing through my hair
Just let it be
Just let it be

Sometimes I wish for anonymity
No reputation going full speed
Have no labels on my sleeves
Escape attention and stampedes
No gossip and no jealousy
Just contentment and simplicity
Drift around from town to town
And start everywhere anew
With noone to let down
Where noone has a clue
And lets me be
Lets me be

If eyes would look the other way
And leave me be
Not on display
My identity just for me
My secrets still for keeps
And dreams alive up in the air
Drifting endlessly
On a rollercoaster at the fair
Moving fast and being free
Wind blowing through my hair
Just let it be
Just let it be

No reasons why or expectations
Not finding lies as explanations
Infinite skies and wide open spaces
Run wild and just embrace
Being me
Just let it be
Just let it be