Stoic's Handicap

Stoic's Handicap

 Chicago, Illinois, USA
BandAlternativeSinger/Songwriter

If Maynard James Keenan and Tori Amos ever had a kid...

Biography

Stoic's Handicap is Jennifer Ryan, a 28 year old native from the suburbs of Chicagoland. Jennifer's musical influences range from Tori Amos to Tool, and with her extensive vocal range from raging screams to other-worldly high notes and unique finger-picking style, it is a challenge to put her music into one specific category. She likes to think of her music as dark, ethereal, alternative rock. It’s hard to believe that only after a year of playing out live, Jen has played over 50 shows, released a live EP (Stoic's Handicap-Live at Hunter's Pub) and demo (Stoic's Handiwho?), worked with musicians associated with the Chicago Symphony Orchestra, and been asked to open for the likes of Loudon Wainwright, The Pat McCliman’s Group, and Caroline’s Spine- all by herself. Only one thing is for certain- don't let the "girl with the guitar" fool you.

Lyrics

Everclear Angels

Written By: Jennifer Ryan

In this silence I am overwhelmed
Lonely and alone with my soul
I am searching for peace
I am searching for me
and then I remember the reasons and the why

So I fly
among everclear angels in my sky
If I die here tonight I dwell within Thy light
All is well
All is well
It is well within me

My life is a lie
The flesh cries out in vain
to confess that I am weary and afraid
to live a life that is worthy in Thy sight
for I am nothing without You

So I fly
among everclear angels in my sky
If I die here tonight I dwell within Thy light
All is love
All is love
There is love within me

Jennifer Ryan
6/11/2004

To Chaos (Ms. Pretty-Pretty)

Written By: Jennifer Ryan

Mr. Dirty-Dirty don’t you wanna party?
Don’t you wanna... I’ll bet you do.

Waste away
You taste the honey, sunny, runny with disgrace
Is running hollow for anything
And you swallow the paper trail

I tiptoe the borderline while you’re drunk on communion wine
And I wish that I could save you from the nightmare of your mind.

One Two Three Four
Mary’s on the bathroom floor tonight

Ms. Pretty-Pretty is in the linens again
You can smell it if you try
While all the pretty little things are going to hell
I sit and sigh and say oh well, oh well

Mr. Naughty-Naughty she’s quite the little hottie
You think you oughta… I’m sure you do.

Fade into
Another endless gutter. Stutter all your lies for me
And I’ll sing you a lullaby
While you're choking on the air supply

I must be seven loves removed by now, but I still remember somehow
Because the memory is jading everything you left behind

London bridges falling down
Mary never made a sound that night

Ms. Pretty-Pretty is in the linens again
You can smell it if you try
While all the pretty little things are going to hell
I sit and smile and say oh well, oh well

I never wanted to be that girl
I never wanted to be that girl
I never wanted to be the girl…

She say’s “C’mon, c’mon! Let's just get this over with”

Mr. Holy-Holy Could Jesus even save her? You say that Jesus Saves....

Try it.

Brave New World

Written By: Jennifer Ryan

Can’t sleep
I’m not awake
Couldn’t find the means to fake it
Sugar pills and fairytales
Are found wanting waiting
So wash me off in
Soap and sea salt
Until the water runs clear
in my brain
there’s a place where
you die and go to heaven
there’s a place where you
you float around my hell (it’s just as well)
land mines and fault lines
out of place out of time
Until I catch my breath again
without you

It’s a brave new world

Freak out
Now get dressed
You left quite a mess behind
Silhouettes and blank checks
Are bouncing off the walls with me
What could’ve been
Would’ve been
This game is never any fun
Should’ve been is useless and endless
SHHH…
the walls are listening
And the wind whistles the same old songs
I’ll sing along and smile digging weeds out in the garden
And they’ll never suspect a thing
without you

It’s a brave new world

la la la la

Now there are better days
and better ways
to live and love and follow through
I’ve got nothing left to lose
Ever since I lost you
So let it fade without a sound
let it sink into the ground
let it all fall down
let it drown…

It’s a brave new world

Discography

Stoic's Handiwho? - demo
Stoic's Handicap: Live at Hunter's Pub- EP limited release
Obligatory Broken Heart Debut

Set List

Everclear Angels
To Chaos (Ms. Pretty-Pretty)
Requiem
Jenny
What If?
demigod
Backslider
Brave New World
30022111
Is Everything O.K.?
Sedona
Preday
Untitled
A Violent Colour
Amazing Grace
My Pariah
Sirenspeak
You Will