Susan VanHam

Susan VanHam

BandFolkAcoustic

It's the kind of music that reaches the heart and penetrates the soul with common issues that everyone can understand and delivered with rich harmonies and a voice that will move you and may even bring you to tears.

Biography

Susan is a self taught musician who writes from her heart and soul and delivers her songs with emotion and a unique voice that captures her audience. Her spiritual journey to herself and spirit has brought her many lessons and has inspired many of her songs.

Lyrics

Sweatlodge

Written By: Susan VanHam

SweatLodge

I sat by the fire
I couldn't go in
He said be careful what you ask for
It's strong medicine
There's wisdom in the fire
I can see it in the flame
And I need to get some help here
Rid myself of all this shame

I looked to the fire
With a wondering mind
And I cried as I feared
The answers I'd find
The fire was alive
Embers danced under stars
Heard the beat of the drum
And voices from afar

(CHORUS):
It's my time alone
Time to be where I must be
Time to see inside
Time to set my soul free

I listened to the voices
Didn't know if it was my own
Heard the wisdom of the spirits
And felt as if I'd grown
I came to understand
We can all feel so alone
But to listen to the fire
Always brings us right back home

(CHORUS) 2X
Time to set my soul free
Time to set my soul free

Crazy

Written By: Susan VanHam

Crazy

You say I’m so angry and I take it out on you
Then you say it’s over, you threaten we’re through
You’ve packed a bag and you’re ready to leave
But I know you got one more plan up your sleeve

I can’t do it your way like you want me to do
I can see you’re struggling with wanting me to
But I am not like you and we are not the same
And I can’t go on playing this game

CHORUS:
I don’t know how this happened
I don’t know what to do
We seemed to be so happy
I was crazy ‘bout you

Why’d you hide these feelings about me
You wait til some turmoil erupts and then I see
You say you love me and I’m perfect for you
But the fact is you don ’t even know if that’s true

I don’t know how this happened
I don’t know what to do
We seemed to be so happy
I was crazy ‘bout you

Look in the mirror at yourself, we each say
But the glare is too strong and so we turn away
And if fear is the culprit, then why don’t we try
To fight fear with love instead of saying goodbye

I don’t know how this happened
I don’t know what to do
We seemed to be so happy
I was crazy ‘bout you

Crazy, crazy, I was crazy, crazy, I’m still crazy…. bout you

What's Unsaid

Written By: Susan VanHam

WHAT’S UNSAID

he tries to be the peacemaker
when passion goes astray
he wants so much to reconcile
so she won't go away
so she won't go away

and he longs for her to listen
but she runs in search of space
she's blinded by the tears she cries
and words she can’t erase
words she can’t erase

chorus:
it's all in what's unsaid
this fear that's in your head
it's all in what's unspoken
that leaves us feeling broken

she tries so hard to listen
but she speaks her mind instead
her words are full of anger
they’re ringing in his head
ringing in his head
bridge:

he tries to give her time
to find the words to say
but then he follows her
so she just runs away

chorus

she wants to be just who she is
and share her life with him
she hopes in time they'll work things out
and find the love again
find the love again

chorus x 2

it's all in what's unsaid
it's all in what's unspoken

Heaven's Gate

Written By: Susan VanHam & Dave Bastien

Heaven’s Gate

First Verse:
The world keeps on moving
But I can't move at all
I’m glued to your side
And the clock on the wall
I watch it for days
As thoughts fill my mind
You’re going to another place
I wonder what you’ll find

Chorus:
Was it peaceful when you left here?
Did you see God? Was he right there?
Did he hold you? Did he scold you?
Did your life unfold before you?
And I wondered as you're lying there,
The things I said, did you hear?
Did you see me when I cried?
Did you hear me say goodbye?

Second Verse:
They made me make decisions
How was I to know?
I tried to be strong
Didn't want to let you go
I watched the rising of your chest
I suffered every sigh
I held your hand and whispered
I struggled with goodbye

Bridge:
I am sure he will come
Reasons make us wait
I want a sign, I want to know
That you're at Heaven's gate

Chorus
Was it peaceful when you left here?
Did you see God? Was he right there?
Did he hold you? Did he scold you?
Did your life unfold before you?
And I wondered as you're lying there,
The things I said, did you hear?
Did you see me when I cried?
Did you hear me say goodbye?

Third Verse:
Please say hi to Dad
‘cause I miss him so
I felt him there by your side
He helped me let you go
I took you to Nantucket
And shared the memories
I found the slip where summers skipped
And sent you both to sea

Living for today

Written By: Susan VanHam

LIVING FOR TODAY

You call me cuz you need me, but it’s not the way I hope
And I’ve been cryin’ since you left and I need a way to cope
For I’m facing all my demons and the grave mistakes I’ve made
Cuz I thought that Forever didn’t have a price to be paid

Chorus:
What’s wrong with me, what did I do – I ask my Dad to show
What did I do so wrong I pray, I need so much to know
What do I say, where do I go to find the dreams that died
Why do I feel these feelings that I feel I need to hide

The confusion and the turmoil and the constant fear I hold
That I’m not what you had wanted for your future, I am told
I’m negative, I’m angry and I can’t see all the good
That you say is right in front of me, I’m guilty know I should

Chorus

And I believe we have a purpose and our lives are not in vain
Even though at times I wonder and I struggle with the pain
I’m worthy, I’m strong, and I can find a way to cope
Cuz when all my strength runs out, I will pray because I have hope

Chorus

I’ve learned that I can count on me and I can count on you
And the others in this life I meet, well they’re just passing through
I can’t blame them, I can’t shame them, I can’t make them understand
I can’t let them plot the course for me, It’s already been planned

Last chorus:
What’s wrong with me, what did I do, I ask my dad to show
He said nothin’ girl, you’re living life, that’s all you need to know
What do I say to thank my dad for showing me the way
I must not dwell on past mistakes
It’s living for today….

You know… it’s living for today…

Discography

So Far- So Good, Susan VanHam 2007
Never Too Late, Second Union Band 2004
Songs for Equality, Second Union Band 2004

Set List

My set list includes original music and sometimes covers by artists such as Stevie Nicks, Indigo Girls and Joni Mitchell.
Sets range from 45 minutes to one hour and vary from 2-3